The beauty of change....

Obama steps into the white house today. Jon came over to watch the inauguration of the 44th pres over omelets and fruit. While I'm really not into the whole prayer thing (and I kinda think the only reason that is done is to appease the catholics) overall it was a moving ceremony. I couldn't help but feel a shred of pity for Bush as he flew away on his plane. What is it like to be so grossly unpopular...even hated? What is it like to fail on such a scale that you have hurt an entire country? But really, this is just a passing thought amidst the excitement I feel. What happens now? No question that this is a human man. No question that there will be things attempted that may be unpopular. No question in my mind that this was meant to happen. A decline in the great capatalistic monster that has had a history of creating that all american dream, and also of ripping it from people, could be a positive change in the long run. Perhaps we will be a country who cares less about wealth? Less about power? Of course, there should be an amount of money coming in and out with the least amount of inflation or deflation possible. But greed created this horrible ego and way of life that was contrary to how we started out this great nation. Greed can not forever thrive. I am hopeful that our way of life is going to become a collectively conscious one instead of buried in green colored paper and the intoxicating aroma of needless power.

I am on day five of no sugar and feel I've nearly kicked it. I almost lost it last night. I went shopping for breakfast materials and walked up and down the candy asile for a bit. I didn't buy anything. Then I came home at 1am (i had eaten at 9) and I stared in the refrigerator for a couple of minutes-fighting with myself about what I should eat if anything. Then I realized I'm not really hungry. I'm just following a ritual...a habit. I went to bed intstead. I've decided to raise my sights to include no carbs for dinner and only whole wheat/fruit carbs will be in my diet. I want to be the healthiest and fittest me I can be. It's a worthy goal.

I feel very at peace with myself and my surrondings. I'm preparing to go to school tomorrow. I cleaned out my closet and dusted off my backpack. I'm listening to Katie Couric in the background tell of Ted Kennedy's seizure (hope he's ok). I'm looking forward to Jon's sister coming to town-though I am not sure how much time I will spend with her. I'm working a lot this weekend plus it's the first week of school. She also felt neglected the last trip and don't want her to feel that way this one. I know it must be weird for her to not only have her brother/bestfriend move away...but now he has me as well....gotta be strange and somewhat upsetting for her. So I'll just play it by ear. Then the next week is San Fran followed by shower preparations for Mindy followed by shower followed by NY trip.....gonna be a busy girl for the next two months or so.